via The Tree
Once again I find myself sitting in a window seat in God’s waiting room. As I look out the clearest window I’ve ever seen and journal my tears because as a single mom I can’t let my baby see me cry, the why questions flood my thoughts and my soul. Oh how I yearn for my spirit to be lifted beyond disappointments and hurt yet I am human and these emotions can overwhelm me at times.
As I gaze out my window I hear other people’s names being called but no mention of my name. I look over my shoulder out the window I see people taking flight. Yet I have so many weights holding me down many placed on me by others and I can’t seem to break free.
My heart cries but I want it to smile. I have to trust God’s plan. I know He won’t lead me down the wrong path. I must stop looking at others and enjoy my wait. God is making me comfortable so I must relax and enjoy the process.
God makes no mistakes and His will shall prevail. So every word written in tears will be transformed into diamonds. My time will come. I am who I am and I’m confident in what I know. So I will run on in the race assigned to me by God.
Surely He sees some type of endurance in me that I have yet to awaken to. So in His presence and fullness of love I will rest. I will rest with a grateful heart in God’s waiting room. My seat is the best seat in the room. So as I wait I see how God is truly looking out for me even in the midst of my indescribable lack of understanding I’ve made up my mind that I’m trusting God fully.